The following video is meant to be a presentation of both the blog and of myself. As I started improving again, some days ago, I decided to record this monologue, so that there could be a video memory of my struggle.
This winter I have spent almost three months in South America, to see if I would have improved during the austral summer, as I usually improve during the Italian summer; and in fact, I did improve. When I came back to Italy (in March) I had a relapse, though. For the last three months, I have been mostly horizontal, without reading or thinking for most of the time.
Now I am climbing the mountain again: I started my rehabilitation reading novels some days ago, then I switched to simple calculations and now I have written my first small code since March. And when I will reach the cognitive level I had about 20 years ago just before I got sick, I will lose everything for months (or years) and I will have to wait without thinking much (despite my best efforts) until I can start all over again…
The myth of Sisyphus has been shaped after me.
paolo maccallini 
Ti auguro di ritornare lucido come 20 anni fa, nel mio caso mi accontenterei di 10, ma so che poi non mi accontenterei lo stesso. Certo è che sono sempre più confuso, e il prossimo passo sarà la demenza?
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